Monday, January 25, 2021

Walls


The dictionary has tons of definitions for the word, "wall"

    A thick masonry structure...that provides defense

    A structure that provides defense

    A layer enclosing space

    Something that acts a barrier or defense




I like a nice solid brick wall..it is appealing  the eye, it is sturdy and strong, it is protective...

Walls make me feel safe.

Walls

Make

Me 

Feel

Safe.


Interestingly, walls can get knocked down. Wind, weather, machinery, a sledgehammer...all things that can break down even the strongest structure.


Love..

Love can also break down walls. 

Vulnerability.

Vulnerability can break down walls too.

My heart, my feelings, my thoughts love sturdy, brick walls. They hunker down inside the walls and sit feeling protected and unharmed.

Seems like it would be good thing.

However, inside the walls is also loneliness, isolation, fear, and shame. 

Lately my walls have been shaken, bricks have fallen down, foundations have been cracked.  I find my feelings, thoughts, and my heart have even had the courage to crawl over the walls. Sometimes they even leave the yard within the walls. Day by day they venture slightly further out.

They are learning to get stronger.

They are learning not to retract.

They are learning to use the bricks from the wall to create a paved path instead. 

Bricks that create sturdy walls are heavy though. It is a long process to take one down and use it to reconstruct a new road.

Patience.

Things that are strong, sturdy, and indestructible take....

Time.


    

Crazy old lady

  Yesterday I was talking my coach at school and as the words were coming out of my mouth I realized... I have turned into a crazy old lady ...