I Totally Forgot..

January through March was rough on me.. whew! The amount of tears that fell could have secured water for the desert or something.. Coming into April has been better but I still felt myself teetering. 

This past week was a huge opener. Opener of the heart, mind, eyes, emotions..

It felt like I finally found my mirror and I realized I forgot.

I totally forgot so many things.

I forgot....

I am a good mom. I mean a pretty damn good mom. I have made some huge mistakes, but the momming foundation was built strong and I am seeing it in Lauren, in our conversations, our relationship and our love.

I am a goal catcher. Every thing I work hard for and towards I end up catching.

I am smart. Like not on an Einstein level, but I value education and I use it to fuel my purpose and compassion.

I am beautiful. Thanks to my daughter who reminded me, "mom, you're hot" I realized, damn it, I am. Not in that sultry sexy swimsuit model hot, but in the scrunched eyes, freckled not very intimidating way.

I am a mountain climber. Figuratively and literally. I can tackle the toughest climb, obstacles, and elements.

I am in charge of my emotional bank. I'm the one checking the balance and ensuring it is full.

I have the keys and I am in the driver's seat. Might be the Hot Mess Express, School Bus, Race Car, Soccer Mom Van..I but whatever the mode of transportation..I  am the one navigating the course. 

I hold the map. I am responsible for following the directions, staying on course, taking the detours, not hitting the dead ends.

Thankful I found a mirror and was reminded...

Grateful I remember how these next pages go...