I was talking to one of my best friends last night and I told her I have this feeling going on that I can't quite identify. My career is going well, my daughter is thriving, all my needs are cared for. I am truly blessed and grateful.
There is something stirring in my mind and heart though...
I think maybe it's unsettled.
I am in the beginning stages of yet another move.. rent in the Denver area is crazy and buying a house right now is close to impossible. So Lauren and I are moving to a new area closer to the city..(weird right?) in a very trendy? loft style apartment. It will be fun as we are close to a neat area off from one of my favorite streets. Lauren will be close to the an art museum as well as the light rail. It will be new for both of us as we go into her last two years of high school.
However, my heart is unsettled. It longs for home. Maybe what I really feel is homesick. Not so much for Michigan although I get bouts of that sort of homesickness, but rather homesick for settled. A cozy home. A little place I can paint, decorate, plant flowers in the front yard, lay in my hammock in the back..
Not only a home to be in, but also someone to share it with. I am homesick for that comfort that comes from making dinner and sharing it with your family at an actual table, waking up and drinking a cup of coffee with your partner, sitting on the deck and drinking a glass of wine before bed chatting about our days...
Those feelings of connections, comfort, safety, and finding your home....
Sharing these with my smelly, geriatric pup isn't quite the same. :)
I think my heart is softening and it is ready for that next phase of life...
Settled and Home.
Waiting to write the final chapters...
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